Empty

Have you ever felt empty? Like, you're just some shell of a person with nothing inside, just going through the motions of life. I feel like that right now. Like a robot almost. Just going through the motions with no feelings for anything.

I don't know if I think this is a bad thing, though. If you go through life without feeling then you never get hurt. Wouldn't it be nice to not feel pain? I sure think so. Emotion pain is the pits.

I feel like an empty cup. Or just the word "empty" in general. That's the first thing that would come to mind if someone were to ask me to describe how I'm feeling. It's an interesting emotion, let me tell you that. I feel like I'm missing this huge part of my life but I don't know what it is. That really terrifies me. I don't know what I'm missing in my life but I know there's something.

I also feel like everything that I've been doing is a waste. That sounds harsh... Allow me to spin a giant web of metaphor for you right here. I feel like I was a cup, full of stuff, packed to the brim. And I was happy. All of the sudden, it feels like my cup is completely empty, like it was never full. Does that make sense?

So until I find out what my cup is supposed to be filled with, I guess I'll just have to hold on.

Empty.